Le Future

I need to stop worrying. My mind is constantly occupied by thoughts of what will happen in the future. if I'll get enough scholarships, if I'll be able to get into the college I need to go to, if my mom and her husband will make it (he's her third husband), and if my father will ever actually get a job. Not to mention the whole financial situation as a whole: my dad is unemployed, my mom has a disability and cannot work, and my stepdad works in the RV industry, and we all know what's happening with that. Will we even have enough money in the future for me to consider college?
Aren't teens supposed to be able to be carefree worryless beings? I certainly don't have that part of being a teenager down yet. I'm surrounded by others of my generation who worry about nothing more profound than if their parents will raise their allowance or if their boyfriend is worth the time.
Ack. I don't even know. Is this entry even worth publishing?