Ok, since September, I've been studying Health and Social Care at college. After my GCSEs were finished, I was panicking about what to do -carry on learning or work- because I'd put off thinking about it for months, mostly because I'd been quite ill for a few months and I didn't feel like I could cope with the stress of exams and finding a course or a job on top of having crippling headaches pretty much 24/7. There were a couple of Theatrical & Media Make Up and Performing Arts Production courses that I was interested in -I did Drama GCSE and for my exam I did the costumes and makeup for a play and loved it- but I just didn't think that getting a job in television or theatre as a makeup artist would ever happen for me. I'd always wondered about being a nurse or a midwife so I just picked Health and Social Care at the last minute, applied and got into college.

I'm nearly at the end of my first year of the course, and I've got to be honest, I hate it. Although I've made some amazing friends in my class, I dread going into it every day, it's just not what I want to do. I know that there's no way I'll push myself into completing the second year. I've been considering going for one of the courses I originally wanted, but I don't know. I just don't think that it's likely that I'll find a career as a makeup artist afterwards as it's a career that a lot of people are chasing after.

Decisions decisions.