Pasta and spiders and dancing. Wow.

So on Friday, I'll be stuck with a bunch of six and seven year olds for seven and a half hours, half of that being outside on 'field day.' Essentially running around outside, and trying to avoid heat stroke. Little children love me. I don't really know why.

Then on Saturday, I will be at my grandma's with my mom's side of the family for a Father's Day lunch thingy. My cousins and I should play that game where we were pretending to be AFI. I was Jade, since someone told me that I'm a lot like him, once again, I don't really know why, and Ryan, who's almost 11, was Davey, Mike, who's 10, was Hunter, and little Marie, who's 9, was Adam. XD. No one in my family or AFI really is anywhere close to Adam or Marie's personality.

We were talking about having problems, and then Mike/Hunter told Ryan/Davey "Well you express your problems in your songs!" That was really funny. I mean Davey doesn't have problems, and he doesn't express them in his songs, and I definitely don't want to make fun of AFI, but we just joked around and acted stupid like we usually do the whole time. And made up "the spider dance." Don't even ask about the "circus in the woods," where there's (really) a black pond and (not really) an "old hermit that had liposuction who lives in a tattered blue tent." Don't. We definitely don't have overactive imaginations. Grandma has an interesting house... there's a rusty old chair that's been there for maybe fifteen or twenty years, of course the whole "circus in the woods" thing, and there's also a lot of barbed wire and piles of wooden structures that were broken down. Since she lives almost in the middle of nowhere, but sort of near Fort Bragg, which is a military fort, we can always here shooting and stuff.

Maybe kids love me because I go along with all their games. Maybe because we go to "circuses in the woods."

I was singing and dancing around the kitchen while waiting for water to boil. Oh how I love being home alone sometimes, or with my friends that tolerate/join in on weird things like that.

♥ Izzy.

Laurel's First Post

Hello, all. This is my first post, quite obviously.
I'm a very animal-oriented person. I have somewhere around 35-45 pets. It changes a lot, due to the fact that I breed mice and African soft-furred rats for my snakes, and the mice and rats are often being euthenized and frozen/fed to my snakes. However, I do consider my mice and rats as pets. They have names, I handle them, they have large tanks and lots of toys.
I'm here today to talk about hermit crabs, however. I have 17 of them. I have a 50-gallon tank for them. They eat healthier than I do. Hermit crabs actually can't eat commercially available food, because they are very sensitive to preservatives. Anyways, mine get gourmet chicken, fish, fish eggs, shrimp, all sorts of vegetables, all sorts of fruit, exotic seaweeds, bee pollen... the list goes on. Like I said, they have a more varied diet than I do.
My life is centered on my animals. As you can imagine, the majority of my free time is spent on my pets. I plan on becoming an exotic (invertebrates, small mammals, reptiles) veterinarian. I'm sure you're like "Well, no kid actually becomes what he/she wants to," but honestly, I'm already focusing on biology and science in general in high school and have been researching colleges and scholarships. Animals are my life and have been since I got my first snake when I was 6.

First Post

Well, as my title so clearly states, this is my first post here. Let's see. I guess I'll write about school.

Ah, I finished my sophomore year about two days ago. It's pretty shocking knowing that I'm half way through high school. It feels like I'm still a freshman. Anyway, I'm pretty stoked for next year. I'll be taking Physics, Math Analysis Honors, AP English Language, AP US History, Spanish 3/4, and Marching/Concert band. As I won't have space in my schedule for Jazz, I'm going to try to just practice the music at home and perform with the band. Also, they're cutting French, so I'm going to have to finish the course at a community college (which I'm pretty stoked for as well).

My AP World teacher totally boosted my self esteem on Friday. He told me that, if I focused, I could make it to valedictorian. He said that I'm his best writer, and the best test taker he's ever had, which was completely astounding because I know of so many really, really intelligent kids who've taken his class. I feel more motivated now, haha.

These amazing people

I love my friends so much!

Yesterday I went to Amsterdam with one of my best friends, Kevin. We both aren't into shopping, we both don't smoke weed, so it ended up with sitting in the sun, watching people all day. It really liked it.
Today, a Jerney actually borrowed me money so I can go to Less athan Jake tonight, another day of Amsterdam!
Maurice told me the Bouncing Souls will be playing in Amsterdam, somewhere in August, we decided to go there.
Martin, Timo and Dave will be playing with their band Question Mark, on Nick's birthday party the 27th. I love their band, I love those guys, I've known Nick now for a few years and I'm looking forward to it.
Only amazing stories about the great people my friends are!

So, about my life, there are just a few days left and I'll have summer holiday. We're going to Turkey this year for two weeks! A few days before we leave I'm going to see Social Distortion live.
And next week I'll be going to see Atmosphere the 25th, Sick of it All the 26th and to the free festival Parkpop the 28th were The Pretenders, The Buzzcocks and the Skatellites will be playing. Actually busy with seeing bands, I love it!
Saturday I have to work at a Drum&Bass party as volunteer. Basic Base is one of the best evenings to work, it's crowded, you are actually doing something, there are many people I know who come.

Non-music related, I'm losing friends because of weed. Finally I came to the conclusion they could just fuck off. If they want to smoke daily and become stupid idiots who lose their brains and can't understand anything at all, that's fine with me, but they shouldn't expect me to be there for them.

Well, how's your life?

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Wowzah!

I haven't been here in quite a while! This blog isn't going to be anything too interesting, it's just that no one has updated in a few days so, yup.

School's out for summer now (SCHOOOOOLS OUT. FOR. EVAH!) and my summer is currently... not completely boring. But I haven't hung out with any friends since the end of the year feild trip :( . Also, my two very best friends moved.  It's tough having to watch two of the people that stuck with you during purgatory, oops I meant to type middle school, both move away at once. I hope I'll also be able to make new friends in highschool. I'm very quiet when you first meet me (Hard to believe, I know) and a lot of people think that I don't talk much simply because I don't like them, which isn't true. I have a feeling I'll make some because, hey, I made some in middle school. Okay, I'm trying to be optimistic! Hahah

I ate a salad today. I'm bringing this up because it was a very delicious salad. Like, very delicious. Omnomnom. It was a Caesar salad complete with romaine lettuce, caesar dressing, parmesean cheese and croutons that made my tummy smile. One tip though, don't drown the stuff in dressing. Seriously. Don't.

When best friends turn to enemies

Hey, I'm back for once

Feels like a long time since I posted here, but I've been busy living, loving and losing. Especially losing, a lot. All my old friends, they're gone, became strangers on the streets.
I hosted a barbecue party last Saturday, I did invite them, but they didn't came. I was so scared no one would come, but in the end of the evening I found myself surrounded by 25 others, friends to me, family to me. People who actually did care, who actually wanted to come. So I'm happy now I guess.
When I brought Dave back to the bus, I saw my old friends sitting in the grass, smoking grass. I said hello and walked on by, like greeting acquaintances. It weren't the people I grew up with any more, the ones I once loved till dead.

About loving, there are two totally different stories. The first is about a guy in a band, who became a good friend of mine. I did like him, but he's so distant. I think I'll keep it at friendship. If I put some more effort in it, took the time to get him to get to know me better, it could possibly work out. But I don't want to live in maybes, I want to live in reality.
On the other side there's a guy who does the light at my local stage. I started to work as a volunteer there, about a year and a half ago, because he told me it was great working there. We became friends somewhere last December. Now, somewhere between our laughs and endless talks on-line until deeply into the night, we've gotten to grow feelings for each other. Ones we want to, but can't, deny. He's working as a safety guard on the beach the coming month, some place far away from here. I wonder what will happen, especially because I'm still dealing with feelings for 'friend-in-band.' But as the days pass, my feelings shift.
What will it be? Friend-in-band or friend-doing-light? Or just maybe none, maybe I'm just pretending there are any feelings and I'm just getting desperate after not having a relation for 9 months.

I feel so old, even though I just turned 17. I'm moving out by the end of this year and it pretty much scares me. I never imagined how living my own life would be. I always was dependant on everyone, now there's going to be a day I've got to do it all alone.

Well, I'll start packing my bag and heading towards school. You'll hear from me as soon as anything changes.

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these 120 hours could go on forever...

Since not many people are posting, :[, I will just post again. XD

In the past one hundred twenty hours:

• I have been dubbed "Miss Murder", who knows why.
• We've got our little group of kids that are going to Warped Tour.
• I found out that I love Alesana and I Set My Friends On Fire.
• I made up a completely random saying "Running with scissors can set people on fire." And that has absolutely no correlation to anything, it was before I heard of I Set My Friends On Fire.
• My quote has become quite popular with my friends.
• I wrote my quote in Rachel's yearbook because she wanted me to, and then Emilie thought that "set" kind of looked like "sex", so she drew an x over the t. I hope her parents don't read that.
• I drew an array of Pacific blue-ringed octopi in my closest friends' yearbooks. They were all different, and include a radioactive biohazardous one, a checkerboarded one, a tiger-striped one, and a Disney one. Yep, I am a special person.
• I brought my grade up sixteen points in two days.
• We ate pizza in science. And we're eating pizza again on Monday.
• I wrote my name kinda like I 2 2 y on my yearbook, and Walter said "Wait, why did you write 'I Qui Qui' on your yearbook? Oh, wait, it says Izzy. Well, I'm calling you I Qui Qui now." Haha, like Bon Qui Qui. We're not weird at all. XD

That is all.

♥ Izzy.