The Despair Faction

Although I know you don't have to write about AFI related things here, I just wanted to share this entry I made in another blog of mine.

Tonight I visited the Thirty Seconds To Mars (one of my all time favorite bands) forum for only the second time, and I was looking through posts and rules, but I wasn't able to stay for very long. The rules were amazingly strict sounding and unwelcoming. I was seriously repelled. Although the posters were nice enough, I felt like I was reading a book, starting with the last chapter when I read through some of the topics. I couldn't get into it at all. It just seemed like a group of online friends talking, it didn't really seem like anything more (although avid posters of this forum may tell me differently, and I respect that, this was just my first impression).

The Despair Faction boards are the complete opposite. I never felt our of place, or alone there (I love how people often greet new members with "Welcome to the family"). Most people on the boards are wonderfully patient and will gladly help you if you have any problems. They don't put up with crap of coarse, and will tell you when your wrong... but it feels like a family. Even though I'm still not super close to any of them, I feel very at home. I feel connected to them. They are all very intelligent people, but usually don't show off or try to act like they are better than they really are. I have gotten into a few arguments, but nothing major or unforgivable.

I've always felt closer to AFI as a band. They do so much for their fans, and it's extremely apparent that they want to be as close to their fans as possible. After all, we are a faction, a family, and we are in this together. They seem to very much realize this. The BEGINTRANSMISSION contest is just one more way of them showing they care and want to meet their fans. Plus, their lyrics are just so personal, there isn't a single AFI song that I can't relate to. Their music makes you feel like your not alone, that someone has been through exactly what you've been through, and that it is possible to come out of the other side.

I want to become a DF member very soon, and the next time I get my hands on thirty dollars it will be the first thing I do. Just so I become an official member of this family, for life. It's an exceptionally small price to pay really.

To The Despair Faction: I love you all and I will hopefully be joining officially very soon!
To AFI: You have no idea how much you mean to me, and how much I'm looking forward to Crash Love!

Pasta and spiders and dancing. Wow.

So on Friday, I'll be stuck with a bunch of six and seven year olds for seven and a half hours, half of that being outside on 'field day.' Essentially running around outside, and trying to avoid heat stroke. Little children love me. I don't really know why.

Then on Saturday, I will be at my grandma's with my mom's side of the family for a Father's Day lunch thingy. My cousins and I should play that game where we were pretending to be AFI. I was Jade, since someone told me that I'm a lot like him, once again, I don't really know why, and Ryan, who's almost 11, was Davey, Mike, who's 10, was Hunter, and little Marie, who's 9, was Adam. XD. No one in my family or AFI really is anywhere close to Adam or Marie's personality.

We were talking about having problems, and then Mike/Hunter told Ryan/Davey "Well you express your problems in your songs!" That was really funny. I mean Davey doesn't have problems, and he doesn't express them in his songs, and I definitely don't want to make fun of AFI, but we just joked around and acted stupid like we usually do the whole time. And made up "the spider dance." Don't even ask about the "circus in the woods," where there's (really) a black pond and (not really) an "old hermit that had liposuction who lives in a tattered blue tent." Don't. We definitely don't have overactive imaginations. Grandma has an interesting house... there's a rusty old chair that's been there for maybe fifteen or twenty years, of course the whole "circus in the woods" thing, and there's also a lot of barbed wire and piles of wooden structures that were broken down. Since she lives almost in the middle of nowhere, but sort of near Fort Bragg, which is a military fort, we can always here shooting and stuff.

Maybe kids love me because I go along with all their games. Maybe because we go to "circuses in the woods."

I was singing and dancing around the kitchen while waiting for water to boil. Oh how I love being home alone sometimes, or with my friends that tolerate/join in on weird things like that.

♥ Izzy.

So, now I've been pretty strongly electrically shocked.

On Friday, at our annual youth group beach trip to Myrtle Beach, SC, in the hotel room, I was trying to turn the lamp on because there weren't any ceiling lights, and it was really dark. I failed to notice that the switch was on the wall, so I was trying to find it on the lamp. I touched something on the lamp, and it sends a really big shock up my right arm. It still feels weird, but it doesn't hurt and it isn't a strange color on my hand. Good.

No longer afraid of any carnival rides! Except giant rollercoasters. Went to a carnival on Saturday at Myrtle Beach, and rode that spinning thing that goes in circles really fast, and then it goes backwards and you feel like you're about to fall out, those giant swings that you end up almost completely horizontal at one point, a little kid ride that goes really slow in circles and you're in giant strawberries but you can spin around extremely fast, and a little kid car ride, and a little kid train ride that you could practically walk out of and we actually considered doing that because it was so slow, bumper cars [which I totally fail at driving. I can drive a car or a go-kart well, though.], and another spinning thing. [Very descriptive!] Then on the ferris wheel. Holly started talking about how it would be nice to be proposed to on a ferris wheel, and I got several pictures (around 15) of a beautiful sunset. Took them on a disposable camera, and haven't actually gotten to see them yet. One I particularly think will turn out well is of my friend Stuart looking at the sunset while we're near the top of the ferris wheel. I didn't originally intend to get her in in, but I didn't have much choice. It's nice, though.

And I just found out that I'm related to the prime minister and president of Poland. OHYEAH.

And today all these kids in science class were yay-ing when this animation of RNA linked together, because there was a sparkle after each one. (???) Then our teacher said "Ya'll are stupid." Allen replied "Whatt?" Then our teacher said "I didn't say anything." And then the whole class started laughing. Except Allen.