Let's believe there's more to life then this.

Actually, things are working out okay for me. Nothing at all to worry about. It's strange, I haven't felt this way in a long time. I have friends, get along well at school, don't have anyone to love or need anyone for that matter, things at home seem to be going alright. My problem is, at the moment things are going good I'm not inspired to write anymore.

So it seems useless to talk about the now because day in, day out it's the same.

I just heard my first boyfriend got engaged. It's been a little over three years since I we were together and two and a half since we broke up. For some reason this news upsetted me a bit, but I don't feel anything for him anymore. Maybe I should not take it seriously, seeming his girlfriend is only 14, but still..
It's strange how thing can turn out. My boyfriend was a waste of time, smoking weed every single day, no education, nothing. Now he has a girlfriend who he seems to love (I don't know in how far he's capable of feeling any emotion) and wants to marry. He's going to live together with is brother somewhere next month, something which I know won't turn out right, his brother is almost worse then he is. I wonder, where will I be when I turn 18.

It frightens me to think about it, I don't want to grow older. I don't want any responsibility, I like being 16. I liked being 15 even more. Now I'm about to turn 17 in 1.5 month. I don't want to grow up, don't want to grow old.
I spend my evening drinking beer and talking about politics with Mark and Sjoerd. Mark is a good friend who I've known for 4 years now, Sjoerd is my younger brother. They're fun to hang out with, both really strange but likeable guys. I'm so happy for Mark he has a girlfriend now. I never met his girlfriend, but he said he would come by and introduce me to her coming sunday.


Well, that was it for today.
I hope my crappy English doesn't bother you too much..

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