Ups and Downs

So, as of... yesterday, rowing is over.

Today has been one of those days when I'm not doing anything, I'm thinking about how it's all over, and I always end up tearing up. *sigh*

It's just. Rowing has been one of those constants in my life, for about three years now. I started rowing in the July/August of 2006, and have had roughly 9 months of not rowing in the last three years between then and now, for the off-seasons.

It's hard to deal with the fact that it's all over. I keep remembering, keep thinking, "I will never hear the roar of the Charge and know they're cheering for me", or, "I will never row in this boat again", and shit like that. "I will never be in a crew where our relationship is as close as this". It's just. Rowing for my school has been my life since the middle of 2006, and now it's three months into 2009.

It's a long time.

Anyway, but, Head of the Schoolgirls was the most amazing weekend of my life. I will never, never forget it, all the cheering for the little Juniors, running with the 1st VIII, racing our beautiful last race - our best race ever, I think. One of the coaches said it sent chills up her spine. Said she'd been worried until it started, and then she was like, "They have it. They won't let anyone beat them."

Our coach, who was competing in Perth during the regatta, was on the phone with one of the coaches during our race. She cried.

Wow, this is getting to be another tl;dr post. I really should shut up. ._.

Summary: I'm devastated that rowing is over, but my weekend was absolutely amazing.